Miss Jessica (mysticchocolate) wrote in xgreatest_fears,
Miss Jessica

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“GET OUT! GET OUT!” I screamed at Zac as I pushed him away from her door. “Never go in there-never” I said as I began to cry. Zac tried to hug me but I pushed him away.
“Shhhhhh…It’ll be ok” he said, he reached out and grabbed my hand “You know that I’ll always be here for you, I love you”
“Don’t - ” I said as he tried to kiss me. No matter how much he told me he loved me, I would never feel the same.
Zac was my boyfriend, a lovely guy, tall, brown hair, and green eyes. I think that was the only real reason I liked him, he had green eyes. She had had green eyes.
“Zac…Go away, jus-just leave, now…please, I want to be alone” I whispered to him. He looked at me, I could tell that he didn’t want to let me go. But he had to.
“You haven’t been the same since it happened…Kaya, it happened almost two years ago, you need to let go of her”
“NO! YOU NEED TO LET GO OF ME! I DON’T LOVE YOU!” I screamed as I threw his bag out of the door. “Get out” I pointed to the door and he left, he didn’t look back. Not once.
I walked slowly down the corridor, wiping the tears from my face. I sat down opposite the door; it was black, with her favourite band stickers and posters all over it. “Why did you have to leave me?” I whispered to the dim nothingness that surrounded me. “Why did you trust him? Why did you believe him?”
Zac didn’t visit again for two days, of course, I saw him in class but he was blanking me. He needed to know why I’d never really loved him, why I’d lied to him for three years…
“Zac…wait” I said quietly to him as he passed me “We need to talk about…well, everything. Do you want to come back to the dorm with me?” I asked
“Sure” He nodded and followed me out of the room
“Zac-I-well, I’m sorry. I should’ve never treated you the way that I did” I said as I sat on the bed and made room for him, It was strange to think that we were both sitting uncomfortably on the bed that we had first made love on.
“Kaya, I…I’m not sure what I should say” Zac stuttered as he shifted uncomfortably.
“Do you remember…her, do you remember how she introduced us” I laughed but stopped abrubtly as the thought of her laughing brought me to tears
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